2 Corinthians 5:17 Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come:[a] The old has gone, the new is here!
I knew it was something I needed to do, this accepting Jesus into your heart thing and I basically treated it as a box to check off on my list of “Life Things.” Afterwards, I went on continuing to live my self-centered, “all about me” life. Years went by and although I knew of Jesus and believed He died for my sins, I didn’t really know Jesus. For years I pushed Him over to the side and worried about other things. My family, my job, and certainly my own needs consumed my thoughts. Sometimes He would creep back in and cause me to question why I wasn’t putting Him first, but it was only for a moment and then I tossed Him back into the corner.
Thankfully, He doesn’t give up that easily.
As I look back on it now, I can’t help but smile at how He was positioning me to finally turn that page. He placed the right people in my life and put me in specific situations-good and bad- that helped me to finally realize I was missing the boat completely.
I also finally (FINALLY) decided to acknowledge The Holy Spirit who had been living inside of me. He was in desperate need of being awoken. He needed to be pulled out from the darker parts of my soul where I had placed Him so long ago.
Man was it great to finally meet Him!
My world suddenly became a million times brighter.
My heart a million times fuller.
Life is still filled with it’s daily annoyances and struggles. Bad things still happen and no, I don’t walk around singing Hallelujah all of the time (although I definitely do it more often). The difference is I don’t feel alone anymore. I have Him living inside of me and walking beside me. And I want to spend the rest of my life glorifying Him.
He is first. He is everything. My strength and my refuge.
I don’t know how I ever made it so far without Him.